2010 just started and it felt so heavy~

Last year is really a fun year, neglect the first 2 month where I had my unstable relationship with Irene. Neglect the fact that my previous company's Creative Director doesn't give a shit about me as his staff~I think overall it's really a good year where I met lots of exciting stuffs, peoples and events.

Stuffs : I bought my PS3 for my excitement, My Squier Fender Electric Guitar, My Morrison Folk Acoustic Guitar and also some shirts I was dying for (Japan International Jersey, Stay Real T-Shirt my sister bought for me and many others) will upload all those soon~~

My Morrison Acoustic Folk Guitar

My Squeir Fender Electric Guitar~~

My Stay Real T-Shirt from Taiwan bought by my beloved Sister(Phui Mun)

Peoples : Sok Ling, Jiaee, Ivan, Sim Simz, Wen Ying, Hong Ming, Alvin Gan, Chung Hing, Chee Hang, Jay, Poh Kim, Woo, Tarry, Hendry, Jaster, Clarence, Eric, Soon, Venice, Moon, Yee and my bosses (Pierre and Su Choon)....They changed me a lot...I need to thank them~~oh ya, thanks to a guy called awens too, if he didn't show me some fuck face during the jamming session, I won't improve..I sincerely say thank you to u~

Obviously it was nothing close to this, the fireworks was blocked and it's crowded~~Damn, but I was happy enough~thanks for the moment~I wish I'll have another year countdown with you all again~

Events : I broke up (actually I'm glad it happened if its not I won't be who I am today, thank to you too Irene.), We form a band called The Puyohs (This is the happiest, after 6years of waiting), Hwa Lian IU day performance, SMKM performance, Cameroon Highland trip with a bunch of my buddies, all the practice sessions with Sok Ling, Iys, Jiaee, Chung....wen ying just started this year, my countdown for year 2010...at Genting Highland and also the fireworks on 12 o'clock, althou everyone separated during the event but I happy enough, I'm just happy I spent my time stuck at there, I knows it's no big deal, but that moment I really happy~thanks for the happy 2009/2010 moment.......I just like a movie~~I won't be telling the details what am I so happy about~~hahaha~

Everything ending nicely, happyly and smoothly for 2009...but when it reached 2010 January...everything started to fucked up~First~~I were lacking power in my working place....I felt I'm powerless after my break, why am I taking so much time to recover just a bit when my boss needs me~~until now...I just fucked up the starting of my first meeting with my company's clients~~I really teribbly sorry for Su Choon~damn!!! Yeah, second...the things me and a few of my good friends were doing and planned goes hairwired and not planned well enough~~~I'm the one to blame for not giving out my assets~~yeah, when we had good planning althou our assets isn't much it will be good enough to go thru the work~~please, I will do my best but please plan~~

The one I care and love the most, my band goes unwell too..the quarrel of my band members made me can't sleep well for 2 days already. Event in dream I saw them quarreling. Actually quarelling in a band is quite normal but I just felt that we're so close but why we ended up like this, everything can be solve...just be calm...althou the 3 others that didn''t involve said to me nothing we can do, they're adults and let them settle themselves, they'll eventually be good back and we're 1 again but I can't stop thinking, I just can't~!! Maybe is because one of them said leaving the band and it makes my heart ache!! I felt so sad and my tears almost drop~damn why is this happening....althou the 2 that involve said it will be ok...but still I'm freaking mess up~~i can't stop thinking~~Maybe I really take the band too important...but it can't help cuz I really love them~~What can I do, to ease my feelings and my problems~~I'm really asking for help now....I will try to deal with it myself but what if it goes wrong~~i really can't inmagine~~

Thank to you Anonymous~!

I don't know who are you seriously but your comment made me wanna write back abit or maybe more about more self again~~The reason why I'm not writing anything here is because I tot no one will read my stupid personal life experience so I move on to my band's blog "www.thepuyohsband.blogpsot.com" with more people visits and read~~haha.

Alright back to business~I've been hibernating, opss~I guess not actually, I've been busy with my office work and also personal life. My band had been quite active since August so I've been busy practicing and looking for performance for my band. Besides that there are a lot of works going on too at my office "Scream Interactive" the staffs here and me are really screaming~~work until we scream~~serious shit~

Besides that, since I knew this few people, my life changed a bit here and there....these are the few people~~

(1)Sok Ling : My very good and powerful vocalist and also hairstylist~~He design my hairstyle for free~~yay!! She's a cheerful girl too.

(2)Jiaee : A slow and blur girl, my another vocalist and guitarist...she gave us chance to perform for th first time at hwalian~~

(3)Ivan : Sim's bf~a very cheerful boy.

(4)Wen Ying : My band's Keyboardist and also my Ah Mui~~She fullfilled my band with her talent~~a very mysterious girl~~but i like talking to her~~

This is the current me~~I didn't changed much from outlook but inside i changed quite abit~~

I've been staying away from all those love and relationship for almost 10 months plus~~and I might continue to stay like this for another half a year~~If possible I wanna do whatever I want before I found another part of my life~and to be honest if possible I just wanna play music with these few people in my band all day long without any stress or problems in mind~~that's all I wanna say for now~~Will update more frequent~~haha~

My love life~~a bit of experience sharing.

I'm not some love doctor of guru.....but I just wanted to share what I've been gone thru in my love life. Not a lot relationship I've gone thru, just 2...one is 1 year and 10 months and the second one is 9 months if not mistaken. I've always envied those people that in a relationship last time during my secondary life till the day I dumped by my second ex. Ok~~here's the story...

The first one :

She's called claire....i dun wan to mention the full name worried they'll be not so happy if I do that...but it doesn't mattter at all because blog is for people to express their feelings rite, just forget it please both my ex. claire, she's a nice girl~ but to be honest she's a bit fierce i would say...and hard to handle but her caring towards her love one is deep...cuz i felt it that time. We used to have good times but after awhile because we stayed together for quite some time she found it hard to be with me anymore due to my boring and not exciting life..so she felt in love with another guy. Couldn't blame her...if i'm her i might do the same thing...she had her point...I quite angry at first when I knew it but as time passed by I got it...here I would like to apologize to Miss Claire that i act so childish last time. I realized I'm actually a serious fucked up boring person last time. Is good to dump me but i wish u just tell me the truth instead. But nevermind...its over. Now u've got ur another part...I hope he's not boring like me last time and not like the fucker that treat u bad last time....good luck in ur realationship...dun forget to ask me to go for ur wedding dinner ya...lol.

The second one :

Miss Irene~~she good perfect fucking like her....she's like a goodess...her smile made me melt and everything about her is just perfect when I knew her...when time passed by...I still think the way I was, she's perfect. But time passed, I realize she actually hate my friend...one of my best friend...and another of my friend...she tend to make fun of him thou my friend is a bit strange, but he still my friend... what if I say ur friend is strange, u get fucking angry as well rite?? And U always said I help them, not u...how am I actually gonna help u....one is my fucking good friend for more than 10 years and u're my girlfriend that i just met for like half a year...lol. I already tolerate...i fucked up my friendship with friend life up.....and then u started to act cold to me...i call u dunno use wat fucking attitude to answer me....u go out with ur ex....i asked u not to good u dun give a damn and I wanted to go jamming with adrie u fucked me like a dog. Is that supposed to be fair~~?? U told me when u go back to penang soon u will broke up with me because of distance and stuffs but all of it because u still got heart with ur fucking ex...ok...and u force me to dump u instead u dump me...smart move...so u can go and tell people i like adrie and u're the fucking victim...stupid la....if like the day i met her I choose her already la not u....i knew her as the same time i knew u....duh! Some-more said wanna be friend...sure...not problem but dun fucking tell me u still like ur ex la....i so happy la when i heard it...somemore u fucked me upside down when i scold ur ex in msn because he add me in friendster..I din add him in msn also...u got so fired up for wat....Thou now we're fucked but I here dare to say...I still care....about u. If not I won't be writting so much of rubbish here. But wat to do...now we're fucked so just continue to be like tat. Wish u'll have great time in ur life..~And I'm going away from u...bye bye~~so fun to have u in 9 months time..You could have be no.1, if you only felt the time~~llaaalal...

Many people always think that they found the love of their life and the most important person in their life but life and love is not an easy game to play thou beatles said before that "love is such an easy game to play" dun believe them....sorry john lennon for messing up ur lyrics...wahahahah. Try to think twice when u're together with some one..if you're darn lucky like my friend danny...just go ahead...if not just let go...dun waste each others time...and energy and ur love....and also money for some case. I found out single is much more interesting....good luck every couple there.....hope u guys happy forever...as for me....play to the fullest....play-full. Maybe I'm the problem that causing broke up case.....aiya, fuck it...enjoy life please...our time is running out.....if we din enjoy...I should've listen to my mum...why so fast stick with someone, go and enjoy life first..thanks ma....i'll listen to u now..but see wat happened to jie when u told her this...she enjoyed enough already...need to find one...wahahahah...bye la...it's 2 am and tomorrow i need to go back to scream interactive and scream arleady...wuhuuu!!